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A death in the family

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My beloved Konica Minolta Maxxum 7D is broken.

My kid brother accidentally dropped it a couple weeks ago. A two foot fall has resulted in a five second grinding noise whenever the camera is turned on. The auto focus works on the lens, the light meter still works… the only thing that doesn’t happen is actually having a photograph taken when I hit the button.

I feel like I’m mourning. I want to wear all black.

I took my camera to Woodward Camera in Birmingham and they quoted the repair at $400. I spent $450 just buying the body two years ago. My budget is about $100.

Of course, repairing a DSLR is a big enough deal in itself without taking into consideration that it’s a brand that is no longer in business. Labor is expected to be expensive but now I potentially have to worry about parts just because they may not be readily available if anything needs to be replaced.

I’ve done some research and the only thing I’ve found in my price range is an online company called Teleplan Camera Repair. They offer repair specifically for a 7D with my problem for a flat $102. My issue with this is the fact that I have found mixed reviews with the company. Some people had wonderful and fast service. Other people swear that the company is the devil and to steer clear of it.

My options are limited. I can’t afford to take my camera anywhere else but I don’t want to waste my money or have something happen to it (further damage, never having it returned, etc.). I’m at a crossroads (why is that plural?) and even worse than that is the annoyance of now relying on my 1.3MP camera phone to take pictures.

If anyone has had experience with Teleplan, I’d love to hear about it. And other affordable options for getting my poor camera fixed would be equally helpful.


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July 27, 2010 at 6:51 pm

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As an update to my previous post, I can officially say I notice a difference with taking Adderall. More specifically, I notice a difference when I don’t take it. My regimen so far has been take it two days, go a day without. And that day without is drastic. It just seems like everything is more intense. Ironic that this little pill that is essentially 20mg of speed makes everything more mellow for me.

I have noticed more dizzy spells but I believe a lot of that is attributed to my lack of appetite. I make sure to eat a couple times a day even if I’m not hungry but I have not been my normal grazing self over the last few days. But being on lithium increases my appetite so I’m hoping that it will level out.

Hey look, a rose bush.

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July 12, 2010 at 10:35 pm

I’m outside your business, taking your wifi

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It’s kind of interesting, finding new perspectives on life. The problem is actually sitting back, paying attention and taking it in instead of going through the motions and letting things slide by.

I was given a prescription for Adderall. 20mg per day. I started it yesterday and I’m really not sure I see a difference. I felt a slight buzz kick in an hour after taking it but I didn’t notice anything beyond that. Some people say it’s a low dose, some people say it will take a few weeks before it reaches its maximum effectiveness, some people point to this as a sign that I really have ADHD because I’d otherwise be washing the ceilings in my house.

Maybe the concentration is better but I’m not sure at this point. It doesn’t seem to boost my motivation but again, I’m still feeling uncertain about it all. I did do a lot today. I went to the YMCA and speed walked three miles, biked a mile and swam seven laps. But I don’t know if that had to do with the Adderall or if I just felt like going. And now I am sitting on a park bench in downtown Royal Oak, stealing wifi and uploading pictures.

These are all things that I like doing and want to do and often don’t end up doing for whatever reason. And that’s what is making me feel like this could be making a difference. I think about going outside to edit photos but I rarely do. I think about working out but I rarely do. I think about writing but I rarely do. It’s like today is a hat trick of productivity for me. And I’m enjoying myself – and I always enjoy myself. So why is it that I frequently go without doing what I like and want to do?

Some of it is depression. It robs me of my motivation and my desires. Sometimes I just feel too antisocial to risk running into someone – people I know or strangers – and knowing I’d have to talk to them. And because this has been happening for so long, some of it is just that I’m used to not doing anything. It’s a combination of habit and laziness. But it’s something I’m working on and this is a testament to that.

I’ve been trying to eat better, which helps. I had trail mix today! And not the salted kind with M&M’s thrown in; the healthy kind with dried fruit. And I like it. For a second, I was considering going grocery shopping at Trader Joe’s but they close in 45 minutes and I’m still enjoying myself out in the wonderful Michigan summer weather. It may or may not sound like I’ve done a lot today. I do know I will sleep well tonight.


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My dream house would be Art Deco

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Dream Room concept drawing

I drew this last summer while practicing perspectives. It’s more wide angled than I was going for but it represents what a portion of my dream house would look like.

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July 5, 2010 at 7:44 pm

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Wait, what did you say?

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I was diagnosed with ADHD this week.

I knew I had a lot of problems but in my nearly 25 years of experience, I never suspected that could be one of them.

But then, I believed you had to be a ten year old boy who climbed everything like a monkey in order to be qualified for it. And even then, that’s what a lot of people would just characterize as “high spirited.”

I remember the diorama I never finished in third grade, the robot I never finished in fourth grade, the report on Walt Disney I turned in with an 18 point font to meet the page requirement in fifth grade. Yes, some of it was a lack of interest on my part although looking back, I can’t imagine why. Today I would consider those really neat projects. But I felt a mixture of apathy, disdain and pure frustration as early as eight years old.

I am not a stupid person. I’m not particularly intellectual and I could stand to brush up on my current events. But I am clever, quick witted, creative and can make a damn good pierogi. I coasted through school and graduated by just showing up. I scored a 27 on my ACT without studying. If I had ever put effort into academics growing up, I’d be in a different place today.

But growing up, I was a very lazy person. I got bored easily and motivation came and went as it pleased. If I didn’t see a reason to do something, I wouldn’t do it. My mantra was, “Whats the point?”

It was only two months ago when my therapist suggested I look into ADHD. I thought she was way off base. I never knew that it wasn’t merely about physical hyperactivity but hyperactivity of the mind. And now that I’ve been looking into it, it actually makes sense to me.

Focusing on one thing at a time is nearly impossible. Unless it’s something that completely captures my attention I will not be able to concentrate on any one thing. I was obsessed with hockey in my teens to the point where it annoyed people around me. But it was one of a handful of things that kept me going day after day, week after week, month after month. I followed an entire 82 game season plus playoffs and was content to watch other teams play if my Red Wings were off that night. I’m not as immersed in it anymore but watching a hockey game still gives me a sense of relaxation. For three periods, all is right in the world.

What gets me in trouble is following through with things. Anything. I’ve gained a reputation as a flake because I can’t finish what I start. I take on a seemingly innocuous amount of projects and it quickly becomes so overwhelming I feel mentally paralyzed. Getting out of bed becomes a challenge. Answering a phone call is just as stressful as a final exam. It doesn’t change my desire to accomplish things. My goals haven’t vanished and my priorites are not the issue. It’s a matter of actually finding a way to put one foot in front of another so I can make something happen. And recognizing my problems but not knowing how to fix them only makes them worse.

Amazingly, just finding out what is wrong eases the problem significantly and makes the solution less overwhelming. Now that I have more information about what I’m experiencing I will hopefully be better prepared to make things better. (Also, maybe I’ll blog more consistently.)

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July 2, 2010 at 4:34 am

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